Tuesday, 4 April 2006

More of my thinking
Mood:  on fire
I think this has all come about because of the looming fact that soon I may not have a job . It has creep into my soul and scared the life out me. I know that one of my big bug-a-boos is that I am afraid that I will end up on the street without anyone one to help me . In some respects I am half way there . I have raised my children to be independent . To have a life of their own and so they have. They have left the nest and found good lives and that is good. As they left the nest and went farther and farther away from it. It left me alone to find what life I could for myself. Without them I really didn't have any goals. I had left them all behind because they were my goals raising them. Now is the winter of my life I look out to figure out what the #### will I do with the rest of my life ..
In my email today I found the saying "yesterday is gone and tomorrow isn't here so live life as it is right now." It is what I have always said I did but when it begins to rain I sometimes forget. Maybe I should look at this as an Opportunity to see what I really would like to do with the rest of my life. Maybe I could see if there is another career in me. It is something I am going to give a great deal of thought to. I am going to try and live in the now letting God handle my life..
My son today know that I am very upset said to me mother you will never have to live on the streets you can come up here and live with us. My daughter has said the same thing. I know that they mean it and I know that if it is bad that I will go and live with one of them. It is just that I like to be independent and I don't want to be a burden to either of them ..Till Tomorrow this Mamaisan

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