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Group One
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Group Two
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
Group Three
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
cheeky
I love this page in the Big Book and never get tried of reading them ..so I thought on the eve of mother's day I would bring to you my favorite 
a-ok
Till I was 11yrs old my father was my hero, he had been a great Dad . What I realize now is that I was so mad at this man that I loved and trusted,In one single act he took from me a father that did not existed and my self assuredness. He reduced me to a pile of pain, not so much by the physical act but by the betrayal of my trust . I never felt safe again in my own home, although he never tried again because I finally did say no. I knew I could never get the man back that I had Loved and trusted. In my life after that I could not find a way to related to men, unless I had a lot of alcohol thus took me down the path to alcoholism . At the age of 30yr I stopped and got help and on Nov 4 of this yr I will have 30yrs sobriety . With the help of some real hero's in AA and my son, they have taught me to trust men a little and I have learned to be better socially then I have every been..I am a long way away from have a normal life . One child out of wed lock and one in a marriage that last long enough to have her. In AA the serenity pray says.... God grant me the serenity to except the things I can not change . I had to learn to except the fact that I could not change my father or what happened I have to learn how to be adult on my own... I will have to say one more thing I did get two beautiful children ... Thank for listening
lazy
"Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics and to practice these principle in all our affairs" Father Martin said when ask how far should we go to help the alcoholic he said " as far as they will let you and then one step more". I love his one step more. We work with our fellow alcoholic who show up at meetings. We go and get anyone that calls AA hot line but Father Martin say that their maybe still suffering alcoholic who may not come to us we may have to go to them. He said he was not talking about pulling them off their bar stools but into each of our lives may come an alcoholic that we could help if we just tried and some we might have to try harder.
happy
not sure
Some days it is hard just to but one step in front of the other,today is one of them.It was hard for me to come back to work after being gone for so long. For the last two days I have fought with myself, "I want to go home". If you read my Blog you know that I believe that God put me in this job to make me more social. I believe after being home with my quite world, to come back to this world of people, places and things has unbalance me. I do a pretty hard job for Delta that takes a lot of information... More information that I think that anyone should know. Five and half yrs ago when I took this job if I had known I would have run for the hills. Everytime I turn around there is a training class for something. Last year I thought I would be brave and enter the world of international ..More information. God help me.. So being off from work most of April has made me rusted and being the Good alcoholic that I am, being unsure of myself has give me a headache.. I know that things will get better but my insides want to run for the hills
sad
Today after having most of April off I will go back to work. I did work a few days in April maybe ten but for the most part I have done nothing but play on the computer and rest, I needed it. It has been a hard year for me and my soul needed a chance to be quite. That brings me to Step 11 " Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood him,praying only for knowledge of his will for us and the power to carry that out." Sometime for me it is as simple as Please in the morning and Thank You at night . Sometimes I need alot of quite time and the God of my understanding gave it to me . In the Bid, I only bid for the first week in April the last week was assigned to me and I had no choice but to take it.(We bid for vacation spots.) There were a few more days I added because I could and April became my quite time. I set up this web page again after not working on it for a long time . I felt that God would want me to do so . It was easy, I didn't have to fight up stream so I knew it was what he wanted me to do. I said I was sad but not really. I wish there was a way that I could retrier but at last there is not , SO it is back to the phone of Delta today with a smile on my face.....Mamaisan
" Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it" This is the step that we live with, it helps us to remain in balance. For me,if I am feeling uncomfortable in my skin, I need to find out why. I live a honest life, I try not to take on city hall with any cause. I try to keep it simple and I try hard to live and let live. But as a real person not always does that work. I have raised two children and had to be father and mother to them . There were times that I had to act what I would call" bigger then life". There were times that my children needed someone that was strong and I had to be that person. I found for me that in order to do that I had to keep things in order. Last week when I became uncomfortable with the feeling I was feeling I went to work. This to me is how the 10th step works . It also means if I do something wrong to admitted and then do the work to be honest...Mamaisan
As some of you know I love wrestling,I have watched it most of my life . Yesterday a wrestler died, not from drugs or alcohol, which happens a lot in wrestling, but because he broke his leg. He had to have surgery on it, a pin was put into his ankle. It is said that he got a blood clot and bleed to death before anyone could help him. He was out of the hospital and even cut a promo at TNA taping.. Nobody thought that this would happen. He was just 33yrs old and he love his craft. He worked hard to get where he was and yet it did not matter. NOBODY knows when their last day will be. I must remember to live the best I can today for I may not have tomorrow. To the friends and family of Chris, I send my prayers. Mamaisan
After writing the entry on step eight and nine it brought back some pain that was in my life a long time ago and that I thought was gone. So I went to work and started reading all that I could again about incest. Earlier in AA my sponsor made me do some work and even go to a therapist... Here is where all that brought me yesterday ... I see now by talking about the letters I wrote to my father that it brought it all back to me. I spent the day reading about incest and one of things I found is this; In a letter posted on the web it tells the story of one incest victim life how she relapsed and went back into the drink. How her therapist wanted her to go deeper in to what had happen to her. It said that she tried and that my doing so she almost died because she started to drink again . The reply on the letter posted made more sense to me... it was posted by alcoholic councilor. If she has done the work once then maybe it is time for her to move past it . You can rehash the pain to your death it only gives it weight . It was a big bright light in my head, why give these thought validity.Just know that they are there and move past them. I thing I need to work on making me feel better. I think I need to do things that will better me. So today I have started a diet. I will work on positive things and turn the negative over to my higher power.By doing this I feel a lot better today... Mamaisan
I thought I would tell you why I decided to sign my posting. In the begin I was not going to do that. My profile was up, you could look at it, but on some of the pages that I am link with it reads "Sober Ranting of Alcoholic on the Beach . Hear his story" . Well I am not a he, I am a she and you can here me sing here .One more thing Mamaisan is the handle my son gave to me when he was 12yr. I have been Mamaisan ever since so until tomorrow... Thank you for coming Mamaisan