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Group One
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Group Two
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
Group Three
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
lyrical
Step eight reads " Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all." Step nine reads " Made direst amends to such people wherever possible,except when to do so would injure them or others." When I took my fifth step my sponsor had me write down the people that I had harmed from the fourth step .(Very bright lady get me started in the right direction.. She was making sure that I just didn't stop at the fifth step that I went on to work the rest of them) . In a later meeting we went over them just to make sure I had not left anyone out. I had to return some money that I had stolen . I am a child of incest also . It is the reason I began to drink so young . I did not know how to be a young teenager. My father took that from me . She wanted me to write a letter to my dead father telling him how I felt. How I resented him and what he had taken from me. If I was to find in me a peace I had to find away not to hate this man . I needed to understand that I also loved him because before this happened he had been my knight in shinning armer. For me there were others I had to talk with but nothing was as hard as the letter I wrote to him and then one I wrote to myself letting me know that I was just a child and it was aright to be afraid. Even today after all these years the emotion is right there as I write this blog I feel it .. I will say it is not like it was but has turn to sadness that may never leave me. God in his way has lead me down a path that has helped me to be a more social person. I may never be the bell of the ball but I can do better at talking to members of the opposite sex....Mamaisan
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I used to earn a living as a portrait photographer. I did this for about 17years. It is a young person game and very hard work. I retired because I could not play the game any more, my body was worn out.I just did not have another Christmas season in me. It was then about 5 years ago I went to work for Delta . I made my living taking pictures of children, my passion was for the outdoors and the wildlife. I love being out there. It was like being alone with my Higher Power. I love the quite. It was really too bad I never learned how to make a living out of it. My Higher Plower knew me I think and decided that I would have to learn to speak with other human beings instead of living in my shell. So the living I made was with people all around me and my quite time became so very special to me... Mamaisan 
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Step 6 "Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character"... 12 and 12 says that this is the step that separates the men from the boys.Now we have to be ready to let our higher power work though us.. In step five we made a list and now we are going to ask our higher power to remove our short comings . It has been my experience that God gives us moments were we have to practice with some of these short coming .If we need patient we will be given the opportunity to practice patient.Sometimes there are lesson that we have to learn over and over again. Our character defects didn't get there over night and they are not going to leaves us over night. I have known of some cases where there was a dramatic change in ones character after the first five step but for most of us me included it was something I had to work on . Patient was one of my character defects and today on the phone as I work with travelers who need my help I offen hear " Oh you are so patient" and I think to myself how little they know about me .This step is one of trust in our higher power that he will help us learn and become a better person . For me the words entirely ready to have god remove says it all. We just had to be ready and in step 7 " Humbly asked Him to remove our shourtcoming" .It is here that the work begins. I am very grateful that he has given me a life time to become a better person . I am also grateful for those around me that understood that and still like me.. I also could see that their where others like me that had to practice with there character defects one day at a time and that made me feel not alone ..Mamaisan
Tomorrow or the next day we will be talking about step six but for today I would like to talk about what happens when we have done step five. For me it was like coming up for air. I found that even though I had more work to do I was becoming at peace with myself. I was now able to except me for what I was. I had no issue about the fact that I was an alcoholic I had found a higher power and now I felt free. I believe as a newbie they would have call this pink clouding but at the time I had been sober for a while. This was not my first fourth step but this was really my first fifth step I had ever taken.What I found was that the nights became easier for me and my sleep ( I'm a poor sleeper even to this day )became better..
This is a very simple word but to every alcoholic it is a word if followed that can save you from a world of hurt. What does HALT mean. Well each letter stands for an another word; H= Hungry A= Angry L= Lonely T=Tired. As an alcoholic you should never get to hungry,angry,lonely or tried. These are set up points that can send you on a drinking bout..One of the things AA tries to teach us is to recognized when you have come to one of these points and to do something about it or not to get your self in the position in the frist place. It is easy to eat when we are hungry and to sleep when we are tried . We can get a sponsor and keep AA friends and family around us so we are not lonely but anger is one that sometimes we feel we have no control over. Anger is one that we need to use all the tools that AA has to offer. In AA we learn we can not afford any righteous indignation, we can not fight with city hall(or ATT wireless), we must learn to live and let live. We must learn that we can only be responsible for our actions and not take on the actions of others. Easy words to write very different in real life. It is sometime very hard to walk away from a fight or pick up a phone to call and talk to a sponcor in the heat of battle but that is what we must learn to do. So the word for today is HALT
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This is on my A list of books that should be read . It is even on sale at Amazon.com here is the link
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" Admitted to God to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs" Big Scary Step that many of us try and bypass.. This is a very important step and if you have done the fourth step then you should do fifth step as soon as possible . 
It goes like this .."Slow down you move to fast you got to make the morning last." Some days I think that I react to situation before I actually think what is really happening . I move to fast..I speak before I know everything. I do this at my job sometimes because I work in a fast pace business. I work for Delta Air Lines and one of my jobs is check people in over the phone for Delta Direct . I know that a lot of the time that these travelers are in a hurry ..but what I have found if I take the time to look at their records I will get them there faster then if I just acted .It is the same with everyday life .I need to see what is really happening and then decided what is best to do. So today I am practicing slowing down.