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Group One
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Group Two
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
Group Three
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
lazy
This is a very simple word but to every alcoholic it is a word if followed that can save you from a world of hurt. What does HALT mean. Well each letter stands for an another word; H= Hungry A= Angry L= Lonely T=Tired. As an alcoholic you should never get to hungry,angry,lonely or tried. These are set up points that can send you on a drinking bout..One of the things AA tries to teach us is to recognized when you have come to one of these points and to do something about it or not to get your self in the position in the frist place. It is easy to eat when we are hungry and to sleep when we are tried . We can get a sponsor and keep AA friends and family around us so we are not lonely but anger is one that sometimes we feel we have no control over. Anger is one that we need to use all the tools that AA has to offer. In AA we learn we can not afford any righteous indignation, we can not fight with city hall(or ATT wireless), we must learn to live and let live. We must learn that we can only be responsible for our actions and not take on the actions of others. Easy words to write very different in real life. It is sometime very hard to walk away from a fight or pick up a phone to call and talk to a sponcor in the heat of battle but that is what we must learn to do. So the word for today is HALT
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This is on my A list of books that should be read . It is even on sale at Amazon.com here is the link
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" Admitted to God to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs" Big Scary Step that many of us try and bypass.. This is a very important step and if you have done the fourth step then you should do fifth step as soon as possible . 
lyrical
It goes like this .."Slow down you move to fast you got to make the morning last." Some days I think that I react to situation before I actually think what is really happening . I move to fast..I speak before I know everything. I do this at my job sometimes because I work in a fast pace business. I work for Delta Air Lines and one of my jobs is check people in over the phone for Delta Direct . I know that a lot of the time that these travelers are in a hurry ..but what I have found if I take the time to look at their records I will get them there faster then if I just acted .It is the same with everyday life .I need to see what is really happening and then decided what is best to do. So today I am practicing slowing down.
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Now we will start the steps that require us to work. "Seeing a man who was tilling the earth, a fool, unable to control himself, cried out, "Why are you ruining this soil?" "Fool," said the man, "leave me alone: Try to recognize the difference between tending the soil and wasting it. How will this soil become a rose garden until it is disturbed and overturned?" This is what the forth step is, we will tend the soil of our soul by tending to to the places that needs to be tilled. There are fourth step out there made by varying company's to help you take this step ..They are good but this is what I recommended because it is how I took my last fourth step. Yes, I have taken this step more then once . Maybe the first two were practice step or maybe I just didn't find the right sponsor to help me. Yes I believe in order to take this step you need a sponsor. What is a sponsor? That is someone who is in AA and who will help you go through the steps. If you don't have one.. find one.How do you do that you say....Well, while you are attending meeting look for someone that sobriety you like and ask that person to help you. In most case they will say yes or give you a reason why not.Now back to the fourth step. My sponsor had me get some 3 x 5 cards . I had two weeks to do it . On these cards I was to list those experience in my life where I had resentments of others . Who it was ..What was the resentment .. and why I had it .. I was also to List any wrong doing that I had done ..Who it was ... What I did .. and why I did it . Example #1 .. I resented my mother for the way she treated while she was drinking .. Self-esteem (fear)Security..I wanted her love. Example #2 I stole money from my employer .. Because I need the money to feed my children ..because earlier in the week I had spent the money on booze (fear).Are you getting the idea. Now here is the part that My sponsor made me do that was the hardest . For every 3x5 card that I had wrong doing on and resentment on I had to have a card of what my talent are or what good things that I had done . Example #3 I a good photographer .. It give me good self-esteem. Most of us are so beaten down by the time we come to AA that we can not see that there is anything good in us .
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This afternoon as I was driving home from picking up my grandson from school he put on the radio and we grooved all the way home to oldie but goodies music. It remind me when I was young with long blond hair and alligator boots up to here. We grooved for the hour or so it take to drive home laughing and singing...LIFE IS SO GOOD..It is at these time that I realizes what it is that I truly got 29yrs ago when I got sober ..
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Step 3 read from the Big Book "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him." The first three step goes like this I can't... He can...I think I will let him . I have under line the word decision it is an important word. What I... What my fellow alcoholics have to do in this step is to decided to turn our will over to God. In the second step we came to believe but in this step we are acting on that belief. Our will, we are the great decider's as to how our lives should be. Sometimes our will and God will may not be the same. That is why I love the Serenity Prayer because nine time out of ten I don't know what is the right for me I only think I do. When I took this step for the first time, my sponsor asked me to say a little prayer in the words that I felt comfortable with, saying to my higher power that I was turning over my will to him and letting him handle my life from now on. NOBODY DOES THIS PERFECTLY WE ALL TRY TO TAKE IT BACK BUT WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO DO... ONE DAY AT A TIME IS LET GOD HANDLE OUR LIVE.. Then one day you wake up and you find that you're asking God what to do before you run off head strong and decide what to do on your own..
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I hate when I let something as silly as a computer frustrated me . Today I am trying to print my taxes and the silly thing wouldn't do it . I will try at work .I hate pdf files .I never have much luck with them .I'm saying my God grant me today big time .. I hope you are having a better day then I am ...I just wanted to up date this to let you know that the printing of my taxes went well at work today . I need to learn to relaxes when things are not going well. I tend to over reacted. I also want to say that I am grateful that my higher power is there to hold my hand when , as my daughter would say ,I am being a worry wart
I'm a child of alcoholic my mother ,my sept father and I did not know until late in life my father (my father I never saw him drink nor was he sober .. He is my example of a dry drunk).The website is one man family telling their story in film about the life of Tom the father and his dieing. It made me remember a lot .My family was the greatest stumbling block in me knowing that I had a problem ."They were the drunks .. not me " I don't know how many times I have said that .My mother died of, well her liver died and then she did.It was a really strange thing to see one week she seem to be OK then all of a sudden she was dead . She was a great lady in many way but like all of us she had a lot of stuff. I was never so grateful that on her death bed it was my family who were the strong ones . My daughter who help hold her as she died. My son who was on the phone with my sister because she would not come because she did not believe me. Myself holding my mother as she left this life telling her that she could go to god and rest well . I was grateful that I was sober that day and that I stayed that way . Our families are the blocks that we are made of it made me realized that even in their disease there were some good block for me to build on .
The second step in AA read "Came to believe that a power greater then ourselves could restore us to sanity" Every alcoholic will tell you of the insane things that they did while drinking. How many times do we say to ourselves I will not drink again after a bad bout with booze only to started up again later that day . For me there was a couple of small children I was cheating out of a good mother . Why would I put them in danger by drinking and driving with then in the car I did not know . I thought I had a belief in a God of my understanding..What I did not realizes how much of my life I ruled and how little I trusted this higher power to do for me .A belief that was as empty of spirit as the Church I attended. What I found I need for me was a far more personal God. I had to trusted God to take away the insanity of this disease One Day at a Time. I had to learn to live in the NOW no matter what happen . I started by saying Please in the morning and Thank You at night...There was a picture on the wall of one of the meeting that I attended .It was a small kitten hang on to a branch of a tree for dear life . That was me in the beginning and even today when life gives me life I see the kitten holding on and I picture hands of my god holding me up..One last thing I will not tell you what your higher power should be I will only say it should be something in which you can believe in . If you have no belief then believe the the power of good in the group of alcoholics will help you.....