Saturday, 16 April 2005

The Big Bad Fourth Step
Mood:  special
Topic: alcoholism
Now we will start the steps that require us to work. "Seeing a man who was tilling the earth, a fool, unable to control himself, cried out, "Why are you ruining this soil?" "Fool," said the man, "leave me alone: Try to recognize the difference between tending the soil and wasting it. How will this soil become a rose garden until it is disturbed and overturned?" This is what the forth step is, we will tend the soil of our soul by tending to to the places that needs to be tilled. There are fourth step out there made by varying company's to help you take this step ..They are good but this is what I recommended because it is how I took my last fourth step. Yes, I have taken this step more then once . Maybe the first two were practice step or maybe I just didn't find the right sponsor to help me. Yes I believe in order to take this step you need a sponsor. What is a sponsor? That is someone who is in AA and who will help you go through the steps. If you don't have one.. find one.How do you do that you say....Well, while you are attending meeting look for someone that sobriety you like and ask that person to help you. In most case they will say yes or give you a reason why not.Now back to the fourth step. My sponsor had me get some 3 x 5 cards . I had two weeks to do it . On these cards I was to list those experience in my life where I had resentments of others . Who it was ..What was the resentment .. and why I had it .. I was also to List any wrong doing that I had done ..Who it was ... What I did .. and why I did it . Example #1 .. I resented my mother for the way she treated while she was drinking .. Self-esteem (fear)Security..I wanted her love. Example #2 I stole money from my employer .. Because I need the money to feed my children ..because earlier in the week I had spent the money on booze (fear).Are you getting the idea. Now here is the part that My sponsor made me do that was the hardest . For every 3x5 card that I had wrong doing on and resentment on I had to have a card of what my talent are or what good things that I had done . Example #3 I a good photographer .. It give me good self-esteem. Most of us are so beaten down by the time we come to AA that we can not see that there is anything good in us .
It is also important that when you take this fourth sept that you be ready to take the fifth. You can not tile this soil with out the help of a gardener that will tell you what to do with the weeds.. Believe me we have a lot of weeds to get rid of or maybe I should say that I had a lot of weeds ..When this is done it will be the start of a way life that will bring in years flowers .

"Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves"

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