| « | April 2005 | » | ||||
 |
||||||
| S | M | T | W | T | F | S |
| 1 | 2 | |||||
| 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 |
| 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 |
| 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 |
| 24 | 25 | 26 | 27 | 28 | 29 | 30 |
Group One
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Hey Yo! A tribute to Scott Hall ... This is my other web site
My Alcoholic Story
Alcoholics Anonymous Home site
I have hope today
Survivors of Incest Anonymous
Online AA meetings
Sober City
Sober Recovery
Online AA Recovery Resources
Cloudy's Home Page
Losing Tom
Koren Zailckas
Cocktails at 5
Group Two
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
SOBER 24
Dryblog .com
Recovery Jones cartoons a fun site
Recovery Universe
Recovery Inn
The Merry Go Round
Sobriety Girl
A day in the life of Alcohol and drug Recovery
Mad Mick Stories
The Big Book
Welcome To A.A. Recovery
123 Greeting Cards Free
Group Three
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
Sober Art by SJ Ketchum
Photo's of a Day on the Florida Tails ..A Quite Place
SPONSOR TO SPONSOR
Guided 5 Minute Relaxation Journey
Just for Today
Meditation
Spiritual Thought
Father Martin Chalk Talks You need a real player to hear him .. If you have one listen .. if you don't have one get it and listen
special
I used to earn a living as a portrait photographer. I did this for about 17years. It is a young person game and very hard work. I retired because I could not play the game any more, my body was worn out.I just did not have another Christmas season in me. It was then about 5 years ago I went to work for Delta . I made my living taking pictures of children, my passion was for the outdoors and the wildlife. I love being out there. It was like being alone with my Higher Power. I love the quite. It was really too bad I never learned how to make a living out of it. My Higher Plower knew me I think and decided that I would have to learn to speak with other human beings instead of living in my shell. So the living I made was with people all around me and my quite time became so very special to me... Mamaisan 
lazy
Step 6 "Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character"... 12 and 12 says that this is the step that separates the men from the boys.Now we have to be ready to let our higher power work though us.. In step five we made a list and now we are going to ask our higher power to remove our short comings . It has been my experience that God gives us moments were we have to practice with some of these short coming .If we need patient we will be given the opportunity to practice patient.Sometimes there are lesson that we have to learn over and over again. Our character defects didn't get there over night and they are not going to leaves us over night. I have known of some cases where there was a dramatic change in ones character after the first five step but for most of us me included it was something I had to work on . Patient was one of my character defects and today on the phone as I work with travelers who need my help I offen hear " Oh you are so patient" and I think to myself how little they know about me .This step is one of trust in our higher power that he will help us learn and become a better person . For me the words entirely ready to have god remove says it all. We just had to be ready and in step 7 " Humbly asked Him to remove our shourtcoming" .It is here that the work begins. I am very grateful that he has given me a life time to become a better person . I am also grateful for those around me that understood that and still like me.. I also could see that their where others like me that had to practice with there character defects one day at a time and that made me feel not alone ..Mamaisan
Tomorrow or the next day we will be talking about step six but for today I would like to talk about what happens when we have done step five. For me it was like coming up for air. I found that even though I had more work to do I was becoming at peace with myself. I was now able to except me for what I was. I had no issue about the fact that I was an alcoholic I had found a higher power and now I felt free. I believe as a newbie they would have call this pink clouding but at the time I had been sober for a while. This was not my first fourth step but this was really my first fifth step I had ever taken.What I found was that the nights became easier for me and my sleep ( I'm a poor sleeper even to this day )became better..
This is a very simple word but to every alcoholic it is a word if followed that can save you from a world of hurt. What does HALT mean. Well each letter stands for an another word; H= Hungry A= Angry L= Lonely T=Tired. As an alcoholic you should never get to hungry,angry,lonely or tried. These are set up points that can send you on a drinking bout..One of the things AA tries to teach us is to recognized when you have come to one of these points and to do something about it or not to get your self in the position in the frist place. It is easy to eat when we are hungry and to sleep when we are tried . We can get a sponsor and keep AA friends and family around us so we are not lonely but anger is one that sometimes we feel we have no control over. Anger is one that we need to use all the tools that AA has to offer. In AA we learn we can not afford any righteous indignation, we can not fight with city hall(or ATT wireless), we must learn to live and let live. We must learn that we can only be responsible for our actions and not take on the actions of others. Easy words to write very different in real life. It is sometime very hard to walk away from a fight or pick up a phone to call and talk to a sponcor in the heat of battle but that is what we must learn to do. So the word for today is HALT
bright
This is on my A list of books that should be read . It is even on sale at Amazon.com here is the link
a-ok
" Admitted to God to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs" Big Scary Step that many of us try and bypass.. This is a very important step and if you have done the fourth step then you should do fifth step as soon as possible . 
lyrical
It goes like this .."Slow down you move to fast you got to make the morning last." Some days I think that I react to situation before I actually think what is really happening . I move to fast..I speak before I know everything. I do this at my job sometimes because I work in a fast pace business. I work for Delta Air Lines and one of my jobs is check people in over the phone for Delta Direct . I know that a lot of the time that these travelers are in a hurry ..but what I have found if I take the time to look at their records I will get them there faster then if I just acted .It is the same with everyday life .I need to see what is really happening and then decided what is best to do. So today I am practicing slowing down.
Now we will start the steps that require us to work. "Seeing a man who was tilling the earth, a fool, unable to control himself, cried out, "Why are you ruining this soil?" "Fool," said the man, "leave me alone: Try to recognize the difference between tending the soil and wasting it. How will this soil become a rose garden until it is disturbed and overturned?" This is what the forth step is, we will tend the soil of our soul by tending to to the places that needs to be tilled. There are fourth step out there made by varying company's to help you take this step ..They are good but this is what I recommended because it is how I took my last fourth step. Yes, I have taken this step more then once . Maybe the first two were practice step or maybe I just didn't find the right sponsor to help me. Yes I believe in order to take this step you need a sponsor. What is a sponsor? That is someone who is in AA and who will help you go through the steps. If you don't have one.. find one.How do you do that you say....Well, while you are attending meeting look for someone that sobriety you like and ask that person to help you. In most case they will say yes or give you a reason why not.Now back to the fourth step. My sponsor had me get some 3 x 5 cards . I had two weeks to do it . On these cards I was to list those experience in my life where I had resentments of others . Who it was ..What was the resentment .. and why I had it .. I was also to List any wrong doing that I had done ..Who it was ... What I did .. and why I did it . Example #1 .. I resented my mother for the way she treated while she was drinking .. Self-esteem (fear)Security..I wanted her love. Example #2 I stole money from my employer .. Because I need the money to feed my children ..because earlier in the week I had spent the money on booze (fear).Are you getting the idea. Now here is the part that My sponsor made me do that was the hardest . For every 3x5 card that I had wrong doing on and resentment on I had to have a card of what my talent are or what good things that I had done . Example #3 I a good photographer .. It give me good self-esteem. Most of us are so beaten down by the time we come to AA that we can not see that there is anything good in us .
cool
This afternoon as I was driving home from picking up my grandson from school he put on the radio and we grooved all the way home to oldie but goodies music. It remind me when I was young with long blond hair and alligator boots up to here. We grooved for the hour or so it take to drive home laughing and singing...LIFE IS SO GOOD..It is at these time that I realizes what it is that I truly got 29yrs ago when I got sober ..
energetic
Step 3 read from the Big Book "Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him." The first three step goes like this I can't... He can...I think I will let him . I have under line the word decision it is an important word. What I... What my fellow alcoholics have to do in this step is to decided to turn our will over to God. In the second step we came to believe but in this step we are acting on that belief. Our will, we are the great decider's as to how our lives should be. Sometimes our will and God will may not be the same. That is why I love the Serenity Prayer because nine time out of ten I don't know what is the right for me I only think I do. When I took this step for the first time, my sponsor asked me to say a little prayer in the words that I felt comfortable with, saying to my higher power that I was turning over my will to him and letting him handle my life from now on. NOBODY DOES THIS PERFECTLY WE ALL TRY TO TAKE IT BACK BUT WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO DO... ONE DAY AT A TIME IS LET GOD HANDLE OUR LIVE.. Then one day you wake up and you find that you're asking God what to do before you run off head strong and decide what to do on your own..